(cf. John 21: 18).
Between these times Peter had denied Jesus with oaths and curses, he had come to the end of himself and all his self-sufficiency; there was not one strand of himself he would ever rely upon again, and in his destitution he was in a fit condition to receive an impartation from the risen Lord. “He breathed on them, and saith unto them, Receive ye the Holy Ghost.” No matter what changes God has wrought in you, never rely upon them, build only on a Person, the Lord Jesus Christ, and on the Spirit He gives.
All our vows and resolutions end in denial because we have no power to carry them out. When we have come to the end of ourselves, not in imagination but really, we are able to receive the Holy Spirit. “Receive ye the Holy Ghost”—the idea is that of invasion. There is only one lodestar in the life now, the Lord Jesus Christ.

Chambers, O. (1993, c1935). My utmost for his highest : Selections for the year (January 5
 

Wascher   Apart from God

Romasn 12:1    give self to God

The only thing that keeps me pointed in the right direction is remberance of the mercies of god. ... there is one thing that has trapped me,... stop me in the   mericeis of God ... Only way to grow on  ... is to discover what God has done in Jesus Christ.

Nothing to hightlight their glory.

Romans 12; present  He is urging the bretheren to grwo into ger

The lovelessness of my own heart. I is so hard to sing O ho... It hurst me to sing O hoe I

Is it biblbicla to sing O how I love Jesus? .... Of course it is.  My lovelessness and

A lady came to Jesus and said , She loves much because we have been forgiven much. We don't realize how wicked we are aprart from Chirs.

The only way to come to  is to pass through the depravity of your own nature.

Father Lord You know me and you know whta I am, and you know what I need. Father, I know that apart from your son I owuld have no part on you. .... There is nothing in us or about us that would cause ...That people might know that you are God. Lord help me to be something other than a seething demonstration of flesh. ... Grace to be humble so that you don't have to humble me. 

Romans 3